Thank you so much, this my last post before going to bed and makes me feel better. The common experiences!! I had my own major difficulties surrounding Mum's death too I was travelling back and forth, by myself 350km betwen where I lived and where Mum liked, which is where I am now as Settlement on the house I lost due my mental illnesses and the mis-presctions was occcuring. My car engine blew up in flames when I was on one of those trips back snd forth as the oil light had been on for months but I didnt attend to it as my functionality was so low. It cost me $5000AUD to get a reconditioned engine and I am on the Disability Support Pension which is under the poverty line.

Thank you for what you said about how family should have been expected to act after I came out of the come - a lot of it was about how it had affected THEM, and here's me just out of a coma. But in reality I have the face facts. This is the family of origin I come from. Their actions would have been parrt of the complex mix of things that produce a Bipolar person. Of the people still alive in my immediate family, my three brothers, were as much a part of the family dynamic of aggression, passive aggression, abuse of many kinds, violence and Oh NEGLECT as were my Mother, Father and Stepfather. I now have fully realised that I have been in a delusion about the true nature of the relationship with my brothers and I. It has been one-sided for years. My delusions are my responsibility and the making of boundaries are also my responsibility - thus my full separstion from immediate and extended family in December - after years of deliberation and consideration on the matter. Yippee!!