Ruminating over worst case scenarios serve no purpose. Something very bad happened to you. You are on the cusp of fully disclosing the trauma and your therapist will be there to console, explain, support and help you grieve. If you are to find a semblance of piece the worst must be revisited. The discomfort and pain will be very real. The reward for saying what needs to be said will become more apparent in the weeks that follow.

I wish you the best whatever you decide.