Thanks for your responses... Actually I'm not taking meds right now. The therapy 1x a week is helping although I wish it were 2x again (had to cut back due to $ - well really that's complicated; had to cut back because I am so sick of taking $ from my family who doesn't quite understand what depression is). I am on these antibiotics and I keep thinking that if I can treat whatever physical problem I have (Lyme disease? Chronic fatigue?) then the depression will go away. Ugh. I know on some level that it's all connected and that depression is also a physical problem but I have a hard time understanding that applied to myself. I keep thinking I don't need meds but it's probably not true. I just had such a bad experience with them (I tried celexa and zoloft, both made me exhausted during the day and anxious at night). Guess I should go back to the drawing board (ie the pdoc).