Hey goodgirl62,

I hope things start to turn around for you. Be strong, hang in there. It sounds like you have had a lot to deal with in your life and have every right to be angry. My advice would be to try and find a therapist or councilor who understands abuse - someone to talk with who can be on your side. I think the people that abuse us can't see what they have done wrong. It's like they have their own pain that they have had forever, but they don't know how to deal with it so they pass it right on. But we do not deserve it. No way. I think the best way to deal with it is to understand that you have a right to be angry (you don't have to forgive right now - or even ever). But a therapist can help you deal with the anger. Are you living with your family now? Are you able to be apart from them? They don't sound like a good influence. Can you get some distance and find some consolation with a new group of friends for a while... maybe a dog park, something on meetup.com?