I am very sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what your going through, I lost my mom but I know its not the same. I do know that you go through a period where you are functioning and its almost like a dream. You do what you have to and then later on when its quiet and people are not checking on you as much and your alone with your thoughts, you feel it stronger. Death is the worse thing that I feel a person can go through. You can't even make sense of it. I know I can't. Be kind to yourself and take care of yourself and know that men grieve differently. Posting on here is a good thing also. Also talking to a therapist may help. I read a lot of grief books that helped me understand the grief process. There are some sites that you can build a memorial for free. Search for free online memorials. I did one for my mom on her 1st year anniversary. Anyway I pray that it gets easier for you and that the pain will subside.

Anjelmarie