I have no one to talk to, I have lost my friends thanks to depression, I'm estranged from family due to my Mom's passing and things they did and how they treated me. The 4 year anniversary of her death is Monday and I'm not doing well. I can't even talk about it to my siblings they don't even answer my emails but I see them on facebook all the time posting. I have lost alot because of depression. I wonder why I am even here still. I wonder what is the point. I'm miserable and I'm dragging my bf down with me. I have to clean up a lot of messes I have made because of depression and stupidness. I am sick of my own self!