Sorry that happened to you Hope. I can certainly understand what you're going through, with the smell of fuel. For me, it was touching, even just a tap on the shoulder. Where I used to work, and now, it's very common - in fact it's 'always' happened' - that a visitor or colleague from another office comes and hugs you and gives you a kiss on both cheeks. Ya gotta do the same to them. Happens with both men and women. The first time that happened (years ago), I was so freaked that I went away in my mind, so I couldnt feel or anything.

Now, I'm so used to it that it's easy to greet people like that.

About that tape in your head - like real cassette tapes where the film will tear or something if played too often and for too long, that tape will eventually start wearing down and the impact will not be so intense. Give it time. Also, every time you smell that stinky fuel, tell yourself that he's not there in the room. He's not around and you are ok. You're safe. It's not easy, but I hope it'll help a bit. Huggles,