I think so. I've been depressed for 2yrs now (confirmed by numerous Drs) and I've been able to fake it to outsiders almost the whole time. Unless you're so severely depressed that you're psychotic/psychomotor retarded/agitated, it's pretty easy to fake 'normality' (whatever that is!) , especially if you're as practised at it as I am! My family who I live with don't even realise the full extent of it all, as I'm trying to convince them I'm fine again so I can go back to Uni.

I go round and round in circles thinking about reality and masks and stuff. I wonder if everyone else thinks the mask is real, then it doesn't really matter if it isn't? We all experience reality differently, so who's to say my interpretation is better than everyone else's - ie I act ok therefore I am ok. I'm not sure if that makes much sense as I'm told that my logic doesn't make sense at times due to the depression

I think a lot of us here feel that way. The depression tells us we are lazy and useless and should have the mental strength to overcome it without needing outside help. I struggle with this A LOT but a part of me knows that it's rubbish. If we could think our way out of this, wouldn't we have done this already??!

I know that feeling, but it really is the depression talking. I find my motivation is the first thing that goes when I sink into the black hole of depression. Are you seeing a Dr/T? Are you on meds? There is help out there, but it can be hard to motivate yourself to find it, or convince yourself that you actually deserve to get better. I hope you can believe that you are worth it. It sounds like your husband loves you very much and could help you in this - try not to shut him out

Take care

*Willow*