hi anjel. i am so sorry 4 your loss.i dont know when it starts to get better i only wish i did or does the heartache ever get better.i sufferd a huge loss just a year ago and i still cant come to terms with it also.i really feel 4 u.everybody deals with it in different ways i suppose and some take a lot longer to get over the death of a loved 1 but will never 4gt.much love to u babes xxxx