I agree with what others have said - you should contact your Dr about this as it could be the meds, or tied to your worsening depression, or a normal hallucination-type feeling around sleep (totally normal - don't freak out at the word 'hallucination'!), or any number of things. I'm sure getting your Dr's take on this will at least reduce your anxiety about it, even if they can't help.
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And there is no reason for it - which, tbh, has always been my sticking point with depression. There is no major trauma in my life, I had a good childhood, I have a loving family - so it seems so self-indulgent to think there's anything in me that can or should be fixed. I read some other posts here and it breaks my heart to read what others have gone through.
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I feel the same way. It's nice to know I'm not alone
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I wonder at times why I ever went along with taking meds and seeking help - has it all been some kind of indulgent attention-seeking on my part? Did I quite like the idea of being depressed, that it would give me the excuse not to do things I didn't want to do? I don't know.
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Yeah, I think like this too - Like my depression is some form of narcissism as all I do is think about me and how I feel all the time. And I wonder if a part of me is using it as my excuse for failing to realise my dream career, by protecting me from failure as I don't have to try. Just goes round and round my mind.
Thanks for the food for thought!
*Willow*