I call it putting a fake face on. No one knows how bad I'm hurting on the inside because I don't want them to see. So I put this fake smile on. And I wish I could tell you it does get better. There are a lot people on here that says it does. I've been dealing with severe depression, panic disorder, and now slight agoraphobia for over 5 years. But just remember we all care about you and are here for you. If you ever need to talk or anything you can pm me. I'm on here most of the time and if I'm away for a little bit I will get back to you as soon as I get back on. Hugs ( if ok )