Hugs always appreciated.
Thank you.

I have had therapy in the past. I've had medication, too. But I went off of it years ago. I thought I would be okay. As a teen I was diagnosed with a chronic "mood disorder", and told that I would likely need medication my whole life. I never liked that diagnosis. I supposed that would be called Dysthmia now, wouldn't it?

It's so much worse right now, though. Seems every few years or so, I'll go through something like this. It's really hard.

But in the midst of it, no matter what's been said in the past, I just feel like I could shake it off - if I really wanted to. But that's the thing. I do really want to... but I can't.

Soon I will see a therapist. I have one week for insurance to kick in. Granted, this will be ignored anyway as a pre-existing condition... but at least I'll have some insurance information to give the doctor. I must wait until April. Then I will find a doctor, and get some help.

Until then... thank you so much for your support. It's a huge relief to communicate with you... beautiful people that you are, reaching out to others this way.