Can you do a google search for crisis lines in your area? I don't know where you live, so I don't know what is available...I know that in my area there is a crisis line and they can refer you to something that will help you out. If you do feel like you need to be in the hospital, you should go in...again, I don't know where you live, but around here you can't be denied treatment even if you can't pay. And later on when you get a bill, as long as you make a small payment every month, they won't send it on to collections because a judge will throw it out if you can prove you are making a "good faith effort" to pay them back. A lot of hospitals also have financial aid available if you have no insurance and are low income. I hope you can find something to help you out...best of luck to you!!