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Originally Posted by WeepingWillow23
I agree with what others have said - you should contact your Dr about this as it could be the meds, or tied to your worsening depression, or a normal hallucination-type feeling around sleep (totally normal - don't freak out at the word 'hallucination'!), or any number of things. I'm sure getting your Dr's take on this will at least reduce your anxiety about it, even if they can't help.
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Thanks - you are right; and I think it's easy to relate everything to depression when actually it could just be anything - or nothing. I will ask my doctor.
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Originally Posted by WeepingWillow23
Yeah, I think like this too - Like my depression is some form of narcissism as all I do is think about me and how I feel all the time. And I wonder if a part of me is using it as my excuse for failing to realise my dream career, by protecting me from failure as I don't have to try. Just goes round and round my mind.
Thanks for the food for thought!  |
Absolutely! And I think that I've had my time to think about me all the time, that I should be able to let it go now. Things are certainly better than they were; but maybe it's scaring me that this is my chance to make things properly right and I still don't know how that's going to happen. I know what you mean about protecting yourself from failure - I think it's a warped form of perfectionism. I have done a couple of university courses in the past few years, but always managed to make sure I didn't have quite enough time - so that if I didn't do so well, it was because I didn't have the time, not that I wasn't good enough. Do you think you will be able to pursue your career when the time is right for you? I hope so
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