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Taonuviel said:
I think I'm having a breakdown. I don't think I can handle anything.
I don't know.

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I know exactly how you feel, I've been fighting to hang on, to get some help for to many years and it's taking so long. I've had so many breakdowns in the last year the hospital told me last time that if I wind up in there again they'd have to commit me.

I'm finally on meds, which I've been fighting to stay off of for more than a decade. Yes, it's a fight I've lost, but they are starting to help and I have to believe things are finally going to start improving. I'm finally just barely strong enough to take enough meds to get to Social Security and apply for disability to hang on for a while and have time to heal. Everything I've read and heard says that PTSD and everything else can be treated given time. I want to heal, I need to heal, and I'm going to beat this! I have to . . .