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Originally Posted by treehouse
Oh, (((((peaches)))))
I have been feeling this same thing with my T. Feeling like I have this BIG EMPTY SPACE where the love was supposed to be when I was a child, and like the only way to fill it up is with T. And it makes me need and want T SO much and it's painful.
I wish I knew how to make it better. I'm actually going to ask T about it tomorrow, although I'm kind of scared of hearing the answer 
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Hi Treehouse,
Yes, the BIG EMPTY SPACE. . .it scares me to recognize that it's there because I'm afraid nothing can fill it up completely. In some ways, i have hoped t could fill it and make the pain be gone. Or mother figures i've had in the past. But I don't know if anything can.
Lately, i've wondered if maybe i could fill up the empty space with several people instead of one. I know i need to find a way to fill up the empty space with my own self too. I am religious and know God cares too. My t once had me imagine everyone in my life that was supportive/strengthening in a big protective circle around me. I thought of them as encircling me with God hovering above the top. Sometimes it helps. The cavern just seems so big and bottomless. I'd rather not be aware of it at all because when i pay attention to it, it hurts.