(((((((((((((((( all !! ))))))))))))))))

Thank you all again so very very much. The thoughts and love mean so much to me.
We did have a rough night last night, but we made a choice again to live and continue this path. And we woke up this AM knowing it is our choice to move forward. It is not something I am being forced to do. The choice is in my hands. And that freedom to choose life and choose a path where maybe I can actually heal up... and maybe even help out a few others who are in as much pain as I was in... well, that is worth continuing. So here we are. I will need to give myself some more time to just heal and get my strength. But I have decided to go through with what will happen in 24 hours. Again, just knowing it is in all truth my direct choice to do this... and having stood at the doorway last night to both choices.... and choosing to no longer see myself as a victim, but as a survivor who does want to live and walk a path of healing and light... well, it feels different inside in a positive way. Not any sudden joy or elation. Just a peace and centeredness that was not forced on me by expectations of the outside world. A choice.