It is frustrating, I hear that... We are human test subjects.

With that said, make sure you have medical supervision if you go off your meds. It is so hard to stay on when you feel better, but as everyone else said, you could end up in a worse place emotionally. Also, there could be physical ramifications as well. Some meds have major withdrawal which can include headaches and sometimes seizures.

Have this discussion with your T if you have one. Maybe he/she can help you with your thoughts about medications.

Either way, be careful.