feeling pretty lonely lately. I feel like something is missing. I want friends yet I don't want friends. I feel like I am too stressed to worry about friends right now. I guess I like being alone yet I don't. I have a bf and that's all i really want and need. Bu I feel an enormous pressure from work and school to make friends. I'm quite self sufficient and independent that I don't want this. I've had friends before and I am not saying they are bad to have...but I just find that I don't know...i don't want people around...I'm kind of owrried about this...although I have been like this pretty much throughout my childhood. Close friends I liked...really close friends, but other than that I found others ot be judgemental, mean, not understanding. Not accepting. I am an accepting person but they didn't like that I was so quiet or liked my alone time. I can only hadnle being around people for so long and then I need to be alone. I don't like a lot of attention. is this weird?...I'm 20 now...and I'm still like this