Im not looking to be diagnosed on here but merely for some advice. I have know there to be something wrong with me and my mood swings. My new therapist has said exactly the words that I have cyclical mood changes where my moods go up and down, up and down, even by the second. They are pretty erratic. I get so much accomplished when(in my high mood) on a good day and do nothing and feel paralysed on a bad day, it's like im avoidant with day to day things that are important and then one day when I am in a good mood, I will tackle everything. Its always one or the other. Sometimes I am depressed for days, even longer and then suddenly I will think of something and I become ignited like I could jump off the roof or something, my social anxiety decreases and then being that happy becomes all too much and I sink into the worst depression where I consider self harm and suicide and then im off again, a happy,high bee brimming with self confidence. It affects my friendships, people don't know where they stand with me. When I am happy, I become quite arrogant, thinking that I am a special human being and way more superior than everyone else to being the most self-sabotaging person that it worth nothing. My anger also goes to the extreme or at least thats how it feels, its like when I am angry, I want to attack everyone but I control my physical reactions of anger towards people pretty well, I don't want to hurt anyone, I just fly into high tempers when things go bad. Im reluctant to label myself in case I am just a negative thinker and my childhood taught me poor coping skills. However both my parents had MH problems. Im taking citalopram which worked in the first couple of months but now just makes me feel worse. I have resorted to self harm in those very dark moments only to regret it when I see the marks the following day when I am in a more clearer frame of mind. At the time of writing this I am in a relatively stable yet depressed state of mind. I don't know what I will feel like tomorrow. Does anyone of this sound familiar to cyclothymia?