turns out my mom doesn't actualy think i need counseling and is just doing it for appearences....plus she has convinced my doctor that I am a fat lazy ***** who has nothing better to do then to get more and more fat....I had just accepted who I am and how I look then my doctor goes and tells me that I'm obese and need to lose wait so I can be normal. I weigh 173 and suppossedly am suppossed to be 120....it's mostly from muscle too! I mean yeah my thighs are a little big from swimming team and I do have a little bit of a belly but she has no right to call me obese! Besides, my stomach has gone down 6 inches in the last year....God....I feel even worse now....I don't know why I let people get to me....I mean, I know I am doing better, but it just kind of gets to you you know? It just gets to you when you hear everyone calling you obese
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sorry im not perfect
sorry im not true
sorry im not happy
sorry im not you
sorry im not there
sorry im not that extraordinary
sorry im not thin
sorry im just ordinary
sorry im outspoken
sorry i dont share
sorry i dont need you
sorry you were never there
sorry im not comfortable
sorry your the same
sorry that i dont change
sorry im not game
sorry im here
sorry i wont be gone
sorry you dont care for me
sorry if im wrong
sorry for what im about to do
sorry but i cant stay
sorry but ive gotta leave
sorry im just running away
Just Sorry
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