I am starting to feel like I might be going down. I have had moments of feeling overwhelmed and that tends to bring me down.

I just got home from vacation where I felt relaxed and had, I would say, about 80% stability. I don't really count it because I was virtually stress free, but it was nice to feel.

I have been home for two days and today was the first day back to routine with the kids.

I started feeling down about the house being a mess, dealing with homework woes with my oldest, and my almost three year old who has decided that he "NEEDS" everything and isn't satisfied unless I can control gravity and sunlight. (Those powers would be nice, but I just don't have them.)

Anyway, I have felt pockets of wanting to not deal. I don't want to fall in again as last Spring and Summer were traumatic at best.

I wonder if I can fight this, or do I let it just wash over me and know it will be OK on the other end?

Ugh.