Everytime I pick up the blasted phone I go to call someone, dial the number, and I've realized I've just phoned my mom...

I can't stand it that I'll never hear my mom's beautiful voice, hear her words of wisdom, or be able to call her. I don't ever want to talk to anyone else! This pain is so unbearable. I want her...just to hear her voice, see her face....whatever. I can never hear it at all. Never. And I can't bear the pain of that.