Hey Oasis,
I'm kind of like you, and I'm not sure it's by choice, but I can understand wanting friends and feeling lonely, yet not wanting to bother with people all at the same time. So, no, I don't think you're weird at all.
I've found that going to the gym, for some strange reason, makes me feel more social. I have no idea why, because I don't talk to anyone there (unless one of the few friends I have at school comes with me, which isn't always). Maybe it's just being physically close to so many people and being able to exchange a few words or a smile that makes me feel a little bit human again. Maybe that would help with your loneliness without forcing you to interact with people, feel pressure to be someone you're not, or put you into the spotlight.
Best wishes,
Ro
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