Is any one else here going through a similar situation? If so it would be nice to chat with you about your situation. Maybe I could learn something, or maybe I could offer help as well.

I think that my tendency to get depressed is probably genetic, but the fact that I am depressed almost all the time is situational, I think.

My marriage is stressful now, due to the fact that my husband is the sole bread winner, and has been for the past 6 years. I feel like he is resentful that I stay home.
At one point in our marriage, I earned more than him! And did so for quite some time.

Now I'm hit with depression and anxiety, chronic fatigue, osteo-arthritis in my feet, obesity, and a mystery mass in my chest (just had a CT scan for that, yesterday--4th one) and a bad short term memory and concentration. I also don't have a shred of self-esteem. I have always felt ugly, even when I was thin. I look at old pic's and I'd give anything to look like I did 10 years ago.

I just can't work right now, I can't stand very long and I can't sit and work due to memory and concentration problems. I also feel like co-workers mis-treat me. I had the same job over 19 years and I took a lot of abuse. Some that I reported and some I didn't, because little was ever done about it.
I would like to be employed and earn a living sometime in the near future, if I could get well.

I sleep a lot when my hubby is at work and my kid's are at school. My house is not as clean as I would like it to be, but I don't have the desire to do more than the basics; laundry, and dishes, etc...

My kid's don't show respect for me. Add that to the resentment that I get from my husband and that's a sure recipe for depression.

I don't know how to change my situation for the better. I feel like the only way to make my husband happy is to earn LOT'S of money and be 135 lbs. again, instead of the 245lbs. that I am now because of meds and sleeping all the time.

I'm not good at parenting. I do what my mom did. I yell when I'm mad and I spoil my kid's when I try and show that I love them. And I know that's not the right way, but it's what I know, and it comes naturally to me.