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My complicated T situation (in place for about a year now) is facing a challenge.
My secondary T--local, the main one is remote (we work by phone) in NYC--is moving away in May for her residency. I face the question: Replace her or not? It seems unlikely that another T will want to take "second chair" to another T (though somehow it's worked out well). Adding to this is that I can't afford to keep working with my NYC T without Medicare paying--it isn't right now. I've paid cash for 14 months now. On top of all this, aside from a pdoc, I have a group I’m in with a PhD T who’s available for individual sessions as needed/wanted.
So need to figure out whether to go just with NYC T on phone or go with one local person—I’m assuming no one will want to be a 2nd therapist while I’m working with another one. I was in unique circumstances a year ago when I started with the 2nd. Hadn’t had a T at all for 4 years, got very sui, sought out my old T from NYC for interim help.
I’m feeling: like I’ve retreated the past 4 months while dealing with getting re-evaluated by SSDI—I held back from taking some steps forward to not hurt my chances. I’ve also felt a distance with my NYC T for a few months.
Speak to NYC T tonight in a few hours. Haven’t brought up the issue with him yet. See local T tomorrow, last week was when we first spoke of her leaving.
Very anxious. Feel like I can maybe progress greatly with him personally unlike with another T, but it’s all mixed up re: distance, money, proximity, lack of being “seen” in literal sense, etc.
Not sure how to get into the whole issue with him.
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out of my mind, left behind
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