yeah, it is hard for me to develop a friendship too. I am convinced that anything I touch I destroy. I hate hurting people and so I don't get close to anyone. But this gal is different. She took me to the emergency room when I had my breakdown. She sat with me in the psyche ward in the small empty cell they put me in. She let me lay my head in her lap and stroked my hair. I have never felt as safe as I did in that moment.

When she got busy with her husband's campaign and her new job we lost contact. Then I felt afraid that she now thought I was deffective so I did not try calling her. Then one day as I was working in the card shop I saw a card that was perfect and sent it to her. Then to have her call and say that to me, oh I think I can do this. I hope I can.
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Tell me, I'll forget.
Show me, I may remember.
But involve me and I'll understand.--Chinese proverb