Anne that is an astounding amount of success. But I can see that possibly in the long term, if you have mental illness/s that it would be hard to keep it all up. But where you are now is where I'd like to be - balance, passion, freinds. Just simply those things. (Doesn't mean I don't miss my career like blazes though, but in parallel to you, all that study and the nature of my career and skills are not t wasted - I can transfer them into anything new that I do.)