really super cold
in chaos
ppl coming to check apt for bed bugs - no exceptions
don't want ppl in my place.
don't want to BE here with them
embarrassed about my kids' stuff (internals)
don't want them in here alone
tried to make hot dogs for dinner - totally reacted and broke down sobbing.
injured
have no one to call. can't call t - no use.
can't call my one support person (don't want to wear her out).
crisis lines useless.
moving things around for ppl tomorrow (still had boxes unpacked from move).
now even living room looks foreign.
really don't want ppl here and don't want to be alone.