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Today at work I felt really low all I thought about was death and I wasnt even sad or any thing and I feel that my time is running out I feel empty inside like there is nothing in me except these sad feelings and thoughts of death. Wish I knew how to stop this feeling of emptiness.

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Hi,

Are you on any kind of meds? I spent a long time that way, dying a little more each day inside, the pain so intense it was warping time, space and reality. I was in and out of the hospital trying to hold on and finally got to a doctor who could help me. Meds are not perfect, but can be a real lifesaver, I mean litterally . . .

I spent the better part of ten years fighting, lying to myself and refusing to even consider meds because I thoght they would cause me to not exist while still being stuck in hell. I'm not saying things are perfect on meds, but life is more bearable and it will give me the chance to make changes and heal. Least that's what I keep telling myself . . .

Please, give it some thought? Maybe even give it a try before you go? How much could it hurt? I thought there was no way meds could help, I'm not to proud to say I was wrong! Meds have heped me, and once we get the right balance I'll even be able to get some healing going on so I can mabye get off them one day.

If you are already on meds it sounds like they need adjusting, there is no shame in that. My sister has been having ongoing problems getting her meds exactly right and periodically slides back into hell. When it's that time of the month, mine sometimes don't work as well as they should, but I can ride it out . . .

Please don't give up, please don't give in, please stick around for a while? Please? We don't want you to go, your special and important to everyone here. We each in our own way know EXACTLY how you feel.