Saturday...
phone call, ex's car had been stolen
thieves lost control, crashed into a tree, totaled
young policeman very kind
ex very ill with pneumonia
already vulnerable...

air show, many planes
too many choppers
flying over the treeline
could see it in him..checking the tree line
felt it in me...how many this time...casualties light?
High Alert Again
uneasy...

came back here
daughter's car had been broken in to
stole minor items as she learned the last time around
nothing of great value
neighbor's back door kicked in
alarm sent the cowards running

immediate sense of being violated
unsafe, not secure in any way
ex slept from the illness and the drugs meant to heal him
didn't heal the nightmares

paced the floor during the night
until exhaustion put me on the couch
living room closest to the car port
listened for any sound reminiscent of intruders
was that way until this afternoon
just could not go on any longer...slept three solid hours

my home will be a fortress
flood lights and alarms
sidearms
physically safe, mentally not so much
FI...