hey everyone,

I decided to quit smoking after watching all my money go down the drain month after month, having to borrow money from my mom or dad only to lie about what I needed to get. I am using the nicitrol inhalier (sp?). It is really working. I had to use it while i was in the hospital during this year and decided to get a prescription for it. It has over 100 cartriges and it is really working. Both my dad and step-mom smoke, and I live with them. It's hard to be around them, and the smell alone drives me nuts, but so far so good. I also realized that after starting at age 15 and now am 30 it is time to quit. I have been successful in the past for about 3 months or so, and that time I had to quit due to surgery, but this time I really want to. Cigs are almost $6.00 a pack here in Wisconsin and that's for the cheap kind. That's just rediculous when I am going without other things just so I can have a cig.

I totally understand what it is like to crave them and need them. They are a stress reliever, at least for me they were. I am here for anyone that is currently quitting or even thinking about it. Also if anyone has any questions about the nicitrol inhalier I would be happy to try and answer them.

I just wanted to share my good news, at least I think it is good news. I know there are so many other addictions out there, and I was addicted to drugs at one time as well. I crave them sometimes too.

I also have a gambling problem and that started the day I turned 18. It happens so fast, and things got better for a while, but I realized that the casino is a way for me to escape all the bad feelings, and then only to come home feeling worse if I lose or a high if I win. But then if I win I have to go back to win more and that just isn't the life I want to live anymore. I just admitted the gambling thing to my dad and my T the other day and am really embarrased about it. I didn't even want to share it on here.

I hope that am not looked at differently on here, but totally understand if I am. It's not easy to tell people who you care about that you have a problem with something. I know there are going to be times when I want to go back to smoking or the casino or whatever it is at that time, but I am going to fight it and plan on winning.

Anyways, am rambling, babbling.

Thanks for listening,
Hugs,
Jen