My T wants to discourage me from always leaving info on voice mails, and that is how I have been informing him that I did it. I have made calls saying that I really wanted to and that I was anxious or something, only to call back later and say that I did cut. I did that when I actually made the cut that got the stitches. He never called me on it. The first I left him a voice mail that I tried cutting and liked it, the next appointment he mentioned that first thing before he even got to his chair to sit down. He asked to see what I did, but they weren't in a place where he could see them on my thigh since I was wearing tight jeans. I left messages for him about doing it after that, but I never heard anything from him. All of a sudden this doctor talks to him and it became a serious thing. I don't know if my T wasn't sure if I did cut or not because he didn't actually see anything the time I was at the appointment. He knows that I've had some psych classes, and I have to wonder if he thinks that I might be trying to fake it? I don't know. I don't know if the MD calling and verifying that I had stitches made my T believe, but it really sounded that my T was getting a push from this doctor about putting me in a hospital. T wanted me to promise that I wouldn't do anything over the weekend--I told him that I had my kids--I never actually said yes/no or anything else. Generally, I "behave" when my kids are with me, so he accepted my answer--I think he knew better off, but didn't question me. Okay, so I did make three tiny cuts over the weekend. I could have not done it, but I wanted to so I did. I was a little anxious. It's come across my mind today, too. I haven't done anything today as of yet. Not planning on it at the moment.