Hello. I just wanted to tell you to not give up. Your kids need you. There is more to a loving home than strict toeing the line. Love is patient, love is kind. All of can use parenting advise now and then because nobody is perfect. Your kids don't need a perfect mother - such a creature doesn't exist anywhere except on T.V. Your kids need you. They need you to keep fighting for them. Staying up past 10pm on a school night is probably not the greatest - but that is not as caustic as constant yelling and the use of fear to "toe the line". A strict parenting style is just that.. a style. it does not equal "better" or more stable. Love and acceptance is important to children.

You are frustrated and feeling shaky right now - please don't give in. Please hang in there - your kids need you in their lives. Kids are smarter than some adults give them credit, they are probably very aware of the games their father is playing. Hang in there - your kids will be glad you did. And you will also as you watch them grow into adulthood you can pat yourself on the back for a labor of love. And putting up with this jerk has got to put you on a path towards sainthood or something.

I hope you feel better.