I've quit SI for about 3 months. However, now more than ever I've been thinking about it. At night, when I'm alone, and theres no one around...it just creeps into my head. How easy it would be, how much better I could feel, how fun and intense it would be...nasty things like that.

Should I see a T about this? I used to see one, but left for school (plus it was pretty much useless), and I haven't been back since. We never talked about my SI, or anything even remotely close to it. I think I've been making some progress considering I've been working extremely hard on keeping a positive attitude, recognizing that the world won't end just because I didn't do something the perfect/right way, etc etc. But those are things I've been teaching myself.

I'm trying to teach myself that SI isn't a way to cope, and that it's wrong, and that I shouldn't do it because it hurts many more people than just me, but it doesn't seem to stick the way it is for everything else. The battle is uphill. I know that, and I'm continuing to resist all and any urges. I don't plan on cutting.

However, should I still see a T about all of this? I mean, just the fact that I used to, do you think I can get past all this without a T? It seems harder and harder, but I really want to do this on my own. I don't like T's, they make me all kinds of nervous and almost seem to make it worse.

Thanks for any input...