You have support here... I know it is not like having those who are close to you. I went through a similar period where there was no understanding. Most of that was prior to my diagnosis. I tried the "here read this book, it will give you some insight" after my diagnosis, well the book was only ever read by me.

However since diagnosis, and improvement with meds support has come a little bit easier. My family is more likely to keep tabs on if I am taking meds, and giving me a kick, when they see me start drifiting to mania or depression.

Heck today I got a verbal warning for attendence at work, but at the same time my manager recommended FMLA (even though I work) to get some of the absenses excused... however I would like to point out that I have spent more hours here overtime without additional compensation than I had missed.

He did however mention that it has been brought to his attention by several coworkers that I seem to have been having difficultly lately. Which is true, and was reassured that they would support me, and help me get the help I need. One coworker walked with me, and reminded me that I am part of the family and that they have been worried about me.

To that I wanted to say "I'm Fine" but the truth is I have not been. I hope you are able to find the understanding you need outside of this forum... but at least you have us.