Hello, jas62295. Self-harming is serious. Do you have a psychiatrist and a therapist?

Some recommended resources and hotlines include:

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
http://www.suicide.org/
http://www.hopeline.com/
http://www.suicideforum.com/

Do you a friend or relative you can talk to?

Please keep posting so we know how you are doing.