Hi there,
I feel it would be a great idea to contact your pdoc or therapist asap, and talk this over. When I was in the grips of depression and had thoughts like you mentioned,I even began to embrace the idea of checking out, I called my therapist, he was kind to tell me to stop by, as soon as I can, we discussed this and he refered me to an excellent pdoc, she was terrific, I got into treatment, mood stabilizer and AD's, I do not regret calling for professional help, please get in touch with your pdoc and or therapist.
Take care now,
DE


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