I'm not sure if this is supposed to be in this forum as I am surely not a 'survivor of abuse', I'm still a victim and will always be one.

I can't be free of this hurt not until my father is dead and buried how I wish he was dead, now understand he is dead to me already but when you are living in the same house as your abuser it's kinda hard to get a release on the pain that has been harbouring inside.

I started to wish that both of my parents were dead, but even though my mother has let me down counless of times, I can't see myself without her, if only she has the common sense to throw him out, he don't contribute in anyway; he doesn't own anything, he's a loser, If only I had the nerve I would kill him myself but then I have a 7 year old daughter to be there for.

I wish he would die!