I don't mean to be blunt and rude but cutting is a serious thing. thats why he probably doesnt want you leaving voicemail messages after the fact.

after the fact the only thing he can do for you is hospitalize you involluntarily if it is within the last 24 hours and he has seen the cutting from you not another source.

most likely he never called you back because you were calling AFTER you had done it so he already knew you were not on your death bed otherwise you would not have been able to call and leave him a message.

Therapists and psychiatrists and psychologists work with cutters on a daily basis. they have been trained to know that cutters hide what they are doing until they hit rock bottom and then start asking for help BEFORE actually cutting and a majority of those who call just to say "I did it" are most likely attention getters. Not saying you are in that majority just that that is what professionals are taught during internship/supervision and so on.

When they do have clients that are calling after the fact the protocal is involluntary commitment to a mental health unit if the cutting is within the past 24 hoursand they have seen the cut(s)

I have been committed for cutting my arm three times. once I had no warning. cops showed up with the therapist and I was put into the cop car and transported. each involluntary commitment required my being strip searched in the er and given a gown and interviewed by 2 staff psychiatrists. then I was taken up to the mental health unit and placed on siucidal watch even though I was not suicidal but thats what they write up cutters. For suicidal wathc all personal items (clothing, walkman cd players cigarettes,they even take away shoe laces) are locked up and you have to have permission and be supervised when you have them placed in a room with a camera (yes the camera was in the bathroom area too). During the next two weeks during each stay I was forced to attend various group therapys, occupational therapy, medications (haldol and I have no idea what else for they didn't tell me just handed me a med cup and said take them) wake up by 7am bed by 10pm, and during one of those three hospitalizations I was raped by an orderly. no sense in reporting it for everyone on the unit is claiming people are out to get them (paranoid delusional here's some more meds)

The reason they take these precautions is because cutting is potentially life threatening so many people die unitentially by cutting. you don't have to cut deep to hit an artery pressure point and so on. take a look at your skin and you can see some veins and arteries just below the skin and not in the fat cell layer.

at this point to a professional whether or not you are faking it is not the issue. its the potental of accidental death and so on that they are thinking about.

I can tell you from experience that out of 19 professionals NONE paid attention to the after the fact calls. It was up to me to either call them BEFORE I cut and work on what is going on in those moments or deal with it myself after the fact or tell them after and be taken by cops to the emergency room for intake to a mental health unit.. Those were and are the only options.

Now if I choose to call before the fact and speak directly to my therapist then I had and have more control of what happens.

I have my therapists full attention and she does listen to me when I let her know I am close to cutting.

she takes the time needed by upping the amount of appointments so that we can take time working out whatever is happening that got me thinknig of acting on it.

I have her promise that she won't hospitaliize me if there are other options avaiable and I am open to them.

These may be the hings he can do for you but first he needs you to speak directly to him BEFORE you act on the urges to cut.

Please try to give him the chance to do that for you.