((((Lynn09))))

My dear friend, I am sorry you are going through all this and that you are feeling so bad. My heart goes out to you and I am right there with you in spirit. I know that that is not the same as being there and I wish I could be. You have meant so much to me and all here. Let us rally around you and uplift you. If you should fall you will not hit the ground for we are right there carrying you until you can stand and walk again.

I am so sorry that this has all happened and triggered you. I understand and I validate how you are feeling. Please take care of you for you are the most important one here. I hope your t will contact you tonight, if not please do whatever you need to do for you. If going to the ER is what you need to do, then please go. I know they do not treat you like they should and that is wrong, but at least you would not be alone and something could be done. Like someone said, maybe someone else will be on and will treat you the way you deserve to be treated.

You are worth so much and worth hanging on even if by a thread. I know how that thread when it is frayed to the end feels and how it feels you are holding on by the very end that is fraying right before your eyes, but hold on just a little longer do not let go. I am throwing another rope down to you right now grab hold and hold on. I know things feel really hopeless right now but our prayers and thoughts are going up just as you are holding on to that rope and I know that God will keep you in his arms and He will not let go.

I know that sometimes when we feel the end is there He reaches down and does not let go. And neither will we. I know that you are having a really hard time but know that I am here always no matter what. I care and I am just a PM away. Please write if you need to or if you just want to have a friend to listen. As far as the lawyer goes listen to the Byz, smart man he is. I hope you feel better soon, remember to breathe through and to do something kind for you. You are so worth it, to yourself first and to all of us. We love you my friend. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps