Sanity seeker,

Such depth, such perception, such insight......

You are not far from your goal......would you laugh in terrible mirth if I said that this is a good thing?

I am also no stranger to rage...it has dominated my emotional lanscape for most of my adolescent and adult life. I have worked for years to understand, to control, to release, to accept and finally.......to forgive.

Your understanding of your rage is a good thing, despite its ferocity. You know it exits and so therefor you are AWARE. Awareness leads to acceptance which leads to healing.......not being sure of your circumstances I wonder if you have some support irl along the way.

I related to your post in ways that it would take me years to describe......and even if you think my words are a bunch of hooey, know this.....

you are not alone, you are loved and you are doing the best that you can. be kinder to yourself, dear dear person.

You deserve some softness as does your anger.......know that you are SAFE.

In stillness......

and take good care of your precious self,

Michah