Pink,

You are doing such good work. The first year of sobriety is so hard, and so amazing, and totally worth it.

Can you call T and tell him exactly what you said in your post? What if he is willing to give you another session? It's okay to ask for what you need. And it's okay for T to say "yes" or "no". But you'll never know unless you ask.

And in the meantime, lean as hard as you need to on your friends in your meetings. That's why they are there.