I understand right where you are coming from. It will take time, and I don't care what anyone says. "It does not go back to being the same." Each of us has to find our own way of dealing with these things. I guess I really don't understand why people have to pick on other married folks when there are so many singles in the world. I think they enjoy wrecking other people's lives. I hope you are able to finally get to the place that is right for you. After almost three years, I am still having those days!