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It is difficult, I know, the day my dad passed on, a portion of me did too
Grieving comes in several stages, and not all in the same order, nor does everyone experience them all. You feeling anger or hatred, is normal, perhaps talking to someone, even a counselar, can help you work through this stage? I don't know, but maybe it can help. It hurts, whatever, and like someone here told me back then when I was in need of support and in question of my feelings, etc., "you really do not get over it" but sort of accept it and live with it". This was an excellent reply to me, and till this day I appreciate that reply. Thank you, whoever it was here awhile back.
It is important for your own well being, not to bottle or hold back your feelings, if you feel tears rolling down your face, let them flow. If you feel a need to yell, that's fine too. Now, it's going on 3yrs since dad left this earth, I still have days that I feel real sad, lost and alone with this grieving stuff, it passes as I laugh and cry thinking of dad's sayings and sharing them with my son. Up until now, I think mom was in the denial stage, cause it is just recent she talks a lot about dad, even said she misses him despite their "not so great marriage".
I let her talk about her feelings or memories. Sadly, though, 2 weeks after I lost my dad, she said to me, "you have to get over this", I was so hurt and angry that my mom could say something like that, after it being only 2 weeks and he was in my life for 46yrs at that time.
Many of us will travel through this inner journey, the grieving stages, and life, in itself. We shall go many different places, experience different but yet very similar things. The most beautiful thing we can all do for one another is, support, listen to someone grieving, let them cry if they wish, and/or even take their hand,an arm around them, maybe even a hug (if the person knows you, and doesn't feel odd about that, a stranger on the other hand may feel uncomfortable with this) sharing memories too can offer some comfort.
I guess what I am saying, is that it is or would be nice if we take time to be there for one another. If anyone wishes you can also PM me if you'd like to chat about this.
I hope this reply has some value to it, I apologize if it got kind of lengthy.

Sincerely,
DE

DE