"It is sort of an addiction, because at 5pm if I haven't had my second dose of lamictal I feel a little out of whack and disoriented."

when you said this I was like wow I thought that was just me. except my doc just started me on this and I have been uping the amount I take a little at a time. They never said anyting about twice a day dosing but that is what I started doing after a couple of weeks. It has helped but not helped. I understand where you are at with wanting to stop the meds...I have been having a LOT of thoughts lately about the pointlessness of them...I get a good couple of months off meds then end up majorly cycling but them have to mess around up uping the dose and the lets wait and see aproach. I have been doing this for about 10 years now...looking back over the past twenty years I just see the future as a lost cause. Sometimes I think I should leave everything behind and go off by myself and just live in the moment ...just easier to do when your manic than depressed because if I just lived in the moment when I'm depressed with out the meds I wouldn't be alive for very long Just think about what you want to do and keep yourself monitered if you go off your meds.