Why is there a bottle of rum in the kitchen? If I might suggest, get it out of your house. If you decide to go back out, at least you will have to get dressed and drive to the package store first. Maybe sanity will return by then.

Do you have a sponsor? Call your sponsor if you have one. If not, go to the very next meeting you can find, blow the whistle on yourself about how you are feeling, and get said sponsor.

These feelings come to all of us, it’s what we do about them that makes all the difference. If you are sitting all alone in your house with that bottle of rum, you are in a very bad place. You know that. If you are sitting in a meeting, telling the truth about how things are going in your life, and listening to the suggestions you might hear, then you are in about as good place as you can be.

Also, remember that your feelings are real enough, but they are not reality.

One more thing, have you been eating well? Cravings are the worst when our blood sugar is low. Eat chocolate or hard candies when those cravings get all over you. But make sure that you eat regularly. Hungry ain’t good early in sobriety.

But above all, don’t drink even if your *** falls off.

Richard