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Originally Posted by googley
I want to feel cared about. But I'm also scared because all the people who were supposed to care about me hurt me or didn't stop it. And I don't want T to hurt me.
(I know this is faulty logic,
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What is faulty about this? This is perfect logic. What was faulty about it is the people who were supposed to care about you. Your logic is right on.
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Originally Posted by googley
I'm scared that she is just saying she cares because that is what she thinks I want to hear and she doesn't want to upset me. Instead of telling me how bad she really thinks I am.
And I feel like she is getting annoyed with me asking if she cares about me, but I just can't seem to help it.  |
This sounds like realistic testing to me. In your upbringing it sounds like things didn't make sense. You never knew when someone was going to turn on you and hurt you? If this is true, your cause and effect were hit and miss. Nothing could be trusted. Now you are trying to make sense of things and test them. This is smart. It sounds like you learned some tough lessons while growing up and these lessons are hard to let go of. A person only knows what they have learned until they learn something different. Sounds like this is what you are trying to do.