I'm with shannah I don't think your logic is fault either. It makes sense based on your past experience. I think the key thing in therapy is to try and open yourself up, dispite how you were treated before, and try letting someone show you what good healthy caring feels like. It is not something most people can just decide to do. It takes a lot of little steps and many times when you test your T over and over again until at some point you finally realize 1) she does care and 2) your worth caring about. These are incedibly hard lesson to "get" and progress in owning these concepts is not linear. For me one week I would have, then the next week I was lost again.