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Mar 25, 2010, 05:41 PM
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Member Since: May 2008
Location: Alabama, USA
Posts: 1,309
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Thanks.
I've had a good day today and now Connor's saying we should stop talking and that he's not going to get help despite trying to get through the stuff on his own before and each time not being able to do it.
I'm frustrated because he's being so ambiguous and just not answering my questions. I had to take the day off work today. I had to phone in at 3am because I was too sick to go in. I was too sick because he keeps changing his mind, getting my hopes up, then pushing me off the edge again. But no, I won't accept that now because I'm sick of getting my hopes up only to be let down again by him.
I didn't WANT to take the day off work. I didn't WANT to be ill and stuck in bed all day. I didn't WANT to hurt like this and be so affected by it. But I have and there's nothing I can do about it except just get on with everything. I'm going to have to take until next Tuesdayt at the least off because I collapsed last night and am so weak and tired and can hardly do anything right now.
And he keeps invading my privacy again, even though he's not even with me! If I depress him that much then why keep checking up on my posts and depressing himself with the things that I say about how unhappy I am? Why?! It's stupid!
I'm so angry right now because I just cannot stand being screwed about and hurt like he has hurt me over the past 2 days. He said a lot of harsh things yesterday and while he may be sorry, I cannot forgive that. It hit me so far below the belt that I'm now very sick.
Let's just hope I can be better by tuesday and get back to work... If not I may have to be signed off 
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